Faikel - How do I look

Hi there folks! How are you going?
I finished working on last saturday night and I was writting the descritpion for this drawing, I was writting also that I had a hard day cos worked extra and rain caught me and I had a discussion with my sister cos she said that I was a looser and that my parents didn't treated me different than the rest of my siblings (although everything went ok at the end ) and I felt hurt cos it's not true, I'm not a looser for not having lots of material things and my parents always treated me clear different, and they never supported what I dreamed to do and discouragued me when I had an idea, but then suddenly electricity went down since there was a storm out there. It went down two times, and I didn't saved what I was writting
On sunday had internet trouble too, and today I had an awful and hard day, my sister got mad at me for something I didn't do thanks to other person's fault, and when he went down the second floor of the house I fell down the stairs and nobody cared about that I was hurt, and plus, my mom yelled at me because " a bit of my panties were seen" by accident and we had a guess at that moment. But even if that was true, seriously, that was silly; cos at that moment what I was concerned more was about to not fall down the stairs and hit my head So posting a drawing here and rambling a bit makes me so happy and relaxed!!!

It's funny, I've been refrained of posting more drawings or paintings here all these weeks cos I thought it was properly to give continuity to and to write what happened at the end (it ended on an amazing way and I wanted the narration to be special) and that my parents are going to move to another city and will leave me behind with no place to live (I can't say "home" cos my home I lost it a long time ago, when my family stopped being an united family and care about each other) and no money (and probably a dept of a car cos they made me sing a credit and they might make me be in dept...I hope not ) for my friends here who care, and I was starting to write that precisely when lights went out, and I realized with what's happening in my everyday life in these times, that time doesn't wait for anybody! As I said in one of my drawings, sometimes being organized and methodical it's not that good cos it avoids you from doing spontaneous stuff and stuff in time and relax, so I decided to do these narrations in a journal later if it happens everything ends ok and I can get a new place to live and a job. All I'm going to comment about that "dilemma end" right now it's that everything came out wonderful at the end because I was able to be sure I had give my love and frienship to the right person since he said something me sure he had faith in me and my intelligence and my skills to know what to do with my artwork! He told me that no matter what I thought to do or not, when the day come I am going to do it right And now I admire and treasure him more than I ever did due that incredible and warm vote of thrust! ^^ Specially cos I know rarely anybody would love a person as much to give that kind of trust on that respect! (and I actually told him how much I this means for me, in more personal words) and I know I did it right when I shared with him my heart and soul. Now I feel way better than I've been before about my art and I'm slowly recovering my self-confidence about it And I'm sure I'll do it right no matter if it's now or in the future cos
I have the experience that gives me a lifetime of making and sharing art I will leave that to the future though cos there's some other things to care of. I'll probably be off of here for a while to find a place to live and another job.

Well, that said, I would like to share this drawing I did with oil pastels but I hadn't the change to share before. It was the first time I used the colors and it made me feel like a "professional artist" everytime I use some of it, like one of those admired and phraised artists who have interviews on "Great characters" tv shows and stuff Those who comment about their movies or shows with posters behind then and look so elegant and eloquent.
But in part I felt like an old lady with new chinese porcelain; amazed by the beauty of the materials but fearing of messing up when painting or break up it the stuff. Because that's some material I've never had the opportunity to use before. And it's funny, I spent a long of time being afraid of using the oil pastels for it, cos I thought I was going wear them or break them or mess up the drawing ... I felt like..like if I had bought a stunt plane and was afraid to use it because I had always flown small planes! And I was like "oh my! if I crash this plane I probably would never see another this beautiful in my life" XD The plane methaphor,
I just think is a great methaphor to explain how I felt the first time I used oil pastels
And as you can see, at the end I learned to fly my stunt plane without breaking it ^ _ ^ And it was so amazing and wonderful and fun to pain with this material! It was amazing to realize that oil pastels paint like crayons, but they are way softer and you can blend them that's something you cannot do with crayons. I specially liked the color on the vest, and the tie, I think they match a lot, I really liked how smooth the colors look on the scanner. I'm particulary pleased with the hair I didn't used markers or colored pencils this time, just oil pastels and a bit of the glitter pen on the hair, but just a tiny bit cos it was difficult to put it over the oils I still feel infatuated by the softness of the oil pastels ....Oooooooooooooh my! specially the green and blue!
I realized some time ago I made faik with long hair cos I was unconciously challenging myslef cos I couldnt draw boys well for a long time, there's other reason why I made faikel with long hair, because the reason for that it's that he's a guy but he cares about his hair! I wanted to let people know with this character, that not for being men they don't have care about themselves. Men are afraid of doing that cos some people would think they're gay for caring of themselves. I just would like to give the message that they shouldn't be afraid, I think men and women both can care of that stuff :nods:
I shared it with before posting it here and cos I was so unconfident with my drawings the experience that happened before related to my art and he helped me a lot to recover my self confidence It was cool and fun that he said Faikel looked like he is trying to impress someone with his snazzy outfit and he picked out that outfit himself and is proud of himself cos I think he picked it out for himself and he's loves that outfit ^^ Now I notice, it really looks like he picked that outfit and feels confident wearing it oh and I realize something else one of the reasons why vest look so well on men it's because they emphatise the natural beauty of chest , shoulder and the arms, and the tie it's a very elegant touch Vests are extremely attractive on men for a lot of reasons ^_^ And I think it's great he helped me to explain some of those reasons and saw a lot of meaing in this modest piece
He also said he looked a bit chubby in this piece, like if it was probably a young faikel *chuckles* I imagine the character would be a bit chubby as a kid, I think he's like 12 on this one. He had this idea of me making a comic where atrix finds a picture of him as a kid, I think it's a very cute and cool idea! Maybe I do it.
......Oh my! I spent 3 days writing this But it was worth the effort!