Hi there folks!
Well as I saw it here atrixfromice.deviantart.com/ar…
I'm a bit worried that I wouldn't have to be able to use my computer or enter the web for a good while, in a bit part because I have lots of art ideas that I think I might forget with time cos I'll not have time to make art...but mostly because, as I said, I feel like I need to pay my "pending debts" to find that inner peace in my heart that I lost and I feel like I can't recover anymore.
The drawing, I did it as a gift for everybody who have been by my side in this site, to thank the ones who have lived with me another year of adventure ^_^ But I've spent too much time on it than now I feel like I'm going to fall asleep in front of the computer And tomorrow I'll have to wake up earlier, so I'll try to be brief:
A couple of days ago (before all this stuff of my brother's school happened) I had a dream, about someone who gave me advice. And I am not going to say how was in the dream cos then Motion-Music
probably will spoil the solemn air of this journal
I tried to talk with him about it, and he said that he wish I could know that I came with these conclusions myself...I'ts like when you're seeing an an amazing reflection of someone or getting philosophic, or doing an amazing performance of a character on a movie or show or something, and then someone comes and say "but you're sure you're not that character right?" or something like that, you get the sense of telling them "hey you're ruining all the solemnity!!" and throw them a tomatoe or anything you have in hand
Of course I'm kidding, I wouldn't be rude with him anybody because of this, but I would much prefer that when I'm talking of a representation of my inner strength or a metaphor, people don't ruin the solemn air.
Of course I know it's just a metaphor and I did the discovery, I'm not crazy
I just would like to make the discovery a bit solemn, with honor!...kind of mystical maybe? *chuckles*... I don't know hheheh, I just feel more comfortable and happy this way
But yeah as I was saying, then I all BY MYSELF *chuckles* discovered in the dream what to do to solve most of the problems I have in my life now, including this problem I got for what happened back in December I needed urgently a solution for. In my dream "the old wise" who was there told me, that I feel sad still for what happened, because I feel I have a few "pending debts" with Galoubet. I mean that when he was there did some amazing and great things for me, was a great help in my personal life, and inspired me a couple of good art ideas, but for lack of time (for my work mostly) I couldn't talk about the good things he did for me when he was there or doing the artwork I had planned at that time. And that's what gives me all the nostalgia and the melancholy because he gone.
So what I have to do it's "to pay my debts" and until then I'll be free! I'll be able to remember him with a smile in the face and warm in the heart, because I'm a grateful person by nature, so I'll only feel happy and in peace until I am sure that I've thank him for all what he did for me.
He helped me a lot in my daily life, and he did much more that what I am going to say later probably. Unfortunately I most he made me feel, and some of things how he helped me, I cannot tell to people, because they are very personal, very special things, things that only he must know and he is the person to know. Also, he was a very reserved person, so I really wouldn't like that if someday he realizes that was a mistake to walk away and come back, that he sees that all the internet knows these things. Cos as himself said once "Internet must not know". And what he said it's real true; the public domain has not the same place in your heart than your close ones! So you cannot go and write for puplic about stuff you would only tell your close ones, because then it would lost all the meaning, wouldn't be so special anymore. It's like some of the nature reserves we have in the world; no matter if it's just a few tourists that you let get in, they will eventually ruin all the equilibrium of the nature that it's inside. So that's why it's better to not let people get involved, only you and the one who is part of nature. I'm agree with that.
So my task of "Paying my pending debts" will be a bit easier than I imagined *chuckles*
I'm going to start doing this with this song. I found it today, because I was reminding a comment of him I read, he said once that the ocarina wasn't only from a video game, but a real instrument, and that you could actually play it! And he mentioned this song, he said that if you didn't wanted to die stupid (he said that nor me! ) you should listen this song. So I looked it on google today cos I was curious, and you know, it's true! People can actually play one! That's so cool of a fact I think! And the song it's SO beautiful!! I love it cos it's so cheerful, energic and vibrant! But at the same time SO warm and relaxing Oh good heavens! :3 How I could live a lifetime without it HOW!!!! Now this is one of my all time favorite songs!! I love these kind of instruments of wind, I love flute, but ocarina's song it's... oh my! It's one of the most beautiful and harmonious sounds of these genre of instruments I've seen! Along with the bagpipes of course His quote. it's from a photo of someone else, so it's the only one comment I can quote now. Because all his photos gone from here And I'm sad cos also MY comments went to the drain with them! And my comments I do, you know I always appreciate them. Also the replies of the comments I receive when I comment on other people's work here.
"J'explique que l'ocarina n'est pas seulement un jeu video mais aussi un instrument hors du commun. Et pour partager un peu de culture musicale j'invite les gens à voir la video sound of ocarina sur youtube (je voulais pas réellement le mentionnet, ayant peur que ca soit contre les regles du site)"
what I don't get, it's why in the clip, they focus very much on the girls shaking on the background rather than in the players playing the music, that it's the important thing! That detail it's weird to me, and also the dance of the girls in the background is weird XD
So yeah, I wanted to share this song so to cheer you up ^^ Enjoy it!
Also look! One last thing. I'm trying to write how he used to write. He wrote in separated short paragraphs, one for every point or idea he was going to do, and that's what I'm trying to do too, cos I've realized by reading his comments when he was there, that it's easier for people to read a text this way, no matter if it's long or short. Well in my case, I appreciated a lot that he did that, cos then I could read the text way better, and since it was divided in small parts, I was able to reply better to his comments and notes ^__^